Own Way Home

by Sonia Tetlow

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released November 13, 2012

Recorded, Mixed and Mastered at Piety Studios (New Orleans)
Engineered by Wes Fontenot
Mixed by Wes Fontenot and Sonia Tetlow
Produced by Sonia Tetlow

All songs by Sonia Tetlow except where indicated.
©2012 SonicGrrl Music, BMI

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Track Name: Own Way Home
Rolling along and it feels so good
knowing I gave it all I could
I'm gonna find my own way home

And every day will be different now
no more wondering why or how
I'm gonna find my own way home

And those lonely times
I'm gonna leave them far behind
I'm gonna watch them burn

Lay it all down upon a bed of flame
til only ashes of the past remain
and I find my own way home

And those lonely times
I'm gonna leave them far behind
I'm gonna watch them burn
sweep and turn
with open arms
and fearless heart
to what may come
to what may go

Growing older I find I can
breath more boldly now
that I can live within my skin forgiven
freedom I have found

From those lonely times
those lonely times
I'm gonna watch them burn
I'm gonna watch them burn
Track Name: What Good Is It?
What good is it baby
worrying so when you know we’ll be fine
It’s making me crazy
winding me up when I want to get

Down to the living soul of something better
I’m tired of working til my bones feel brittle
And I’ve no time for teasing no need for benediction
Throw some hip in your lip and tell me once now
what you want to do

Cuz silence ain’t easy
and sometimes its sound breaks wide as the sun
In a halo of meaning
burning me up on the heat coming

Down to the living soul of something better
I’m tired of working til my bones feel brittle
And I’ve no time for teasing no need for benediction
Throw some hip in your lip and tell me once now
what you want to do

And it’s been a lonely long row down this road
and I got a feeling we’re heading towards a funeral hole
going down going down
So I’ve been stacking up stones building all my bridges home
wondering if you’d ever make the leap take a deep breath and
let it go

Cuz don’t worry baby
flying ain’t hard it’s just the will of the ground
spun out of phase and
lifting you up before pulling you

Down to the living soul of something better
I’m tired of working til my bones feel brittle
And I’ve no time for teasing no need for benediction
Throw some hip in your lip and tell me once now
what you want to do
Track Name: A Thousand Doors
They come out at night switching the signs around
So you can’t find which way to be found
and I’ve grown so tired I can’t believe where I’ve been
I feel only light fading within and

Something’s holding me down and I can’t breathe
And when I look around I can’t see
Oh how my heart aches for what this world takes
As it separates us from our dreams

Cold as the souless
Silent as snow falling
Still as a barren
Bough in silhouette
Wistful as time’s passage
Deep as the well of sorrow
Long as the hours
Lost to regret

Something’s holding me down and I can’t breathe
And when I look around I can’t see
Oh how my heart aches for what this world takes
As it separates us from our dreams

But there are a thousand doors opening wide
Revealing a million stars ready to guide you
So when you make that leap you’re certain to find
That you are surrounded, surrounded
by light
Track Name: Hook, Line
Don’t you know I’ll be done before you go
and don’t you dare vanish into air

I was running through the backyard slipping in the mud
hiding from the eyes that ever followed from above
and wondering at the sight if they saw what they saw
do we ever get free from the things that we are
I said come on baby lay back, come on baby shine
come on let me do all the things that I know
that you want me to do that I want you to do
with your hands mouth hook, line

Fall fall fall

and if you saw me would you know what to say
and if I saw you would I just run away
cuz I am a stranger in a strange land wondering how I got here
I am a stranger in a strange land wondering who I am, who I am

Fraud fraud fraud

Give me some cover baby
Unearth these secrets for a sign
Cuz I can’t remember how we came to be
Lost children laden with desire

Running through the backyard slipping in the mud
hiding from the eyes that ever followed from above
and wondering at the sight if they saw what they saw
do we ever get free from the things that we are
I said come on baby lay back, come on baby shine
come on let me do all the things that I know
that you want me to do that I want you to do
with your hands mouth hook, line

Running through the backyard slipping in the mud
hiding from the eyes that ever followed from above
and wondering at the sight if they saw what they saw
if they saw what they saw
I said come on baby lay back, come on baby shine
come on let me do all the things that I know
that you want me to do that I want you to do
that you want me to do that I want you to do
Track Name: If You Took My Heart
If you took my heart and stowed it away
I still could not keep this sweet tempest at bay
the touch of your gaze as your eyes seemed to say
I will love you wreck you teach you to stay my love

cuz it don’t take no eyes to see what’s going on here
It don’t take no mind to know what’s in store down this road
and it don’t make no difference woman cuz I want you to know
that my heart can’t hold this heat much longer

and all of my instincts could not help me ignore
this wordless warning, this longing for more
so the grace of my days became the grapple of war
but find me a beauty that’s more worth fighting for than my love

cuz it don’t take no eyes to see what’s going on here
It don’t take no mind to know what’s in store down this road
and it don’t make no difference woman cuz I want you to know
that my heart can’t hold this heat much longer

so put your hand in my hand, pull me quietly close
give this moment a chance then take my love as your own
for this lifetime that comes so quickly may go
but you will forever be my heart and my home my love

cuz it don’t take no eyes to see what’s going on here
It don’t take no mind to know what’s in store down this road
and it don’t make no difference woman cuz I want you to know
that my heart can’t hold this heat much longer
Track Name: K Flood Blues
2005, August time
the heat is getting hotter and a storm is on the rise
so batten down the hatches and abandon the ship
a change is a-coming and it’s blowing on the wind
say goodbye to New Orleans

The wind is whipping hard, the trees are bent and broken
the water is churning and the cameras are rolling
looks like the big one prophesized for years
it’s the oldest of stories but we never did believe
it could fly in New Orleans

I said hey-ya pockey oh-ah pockey way

Come Tuesday morning and the skies are clear
but the levees done blown there ain’t no getting out of here
mother and father, little sister too
I told you leave no what am I gonna do
I don’t know how to get you out of New Orleans

I said hey-ya pockey oh-ah pockey way

A million calls dropped every time
cuz there ain’t no cell service, not a dry land line
and I want to believe that help is on the way
but it’s been 5 days long of watching people dehydrate
dying on the streets of New Orleans
(That’s in the United States of America)

so good job Brownie, way to go
the CNN news knows more than you know
and good job Georgie, your daddy’s son
but could you drop down some water
from your Airforce One

I said hey-ya pockey oh-ah pockey way

I want to thank you Dietmar for getting the canoe
and floating my family to the entrance of the school
Thank you Coast Guard for picking them up
and flying them safely to the Causeway Exit drop
and I want to thank you Tania for sneaking through the lines
5,000 in the airport
she found them just in time

hey-ya pockey oh-ah pockey way
hey-ya pockey oh-ah pockey way
hey-ya pockey oh-ah pockey way
Track Name: Almost There
Empty like an open book left unread upon the shelf
I don’t have the words to say I just want to be here by myself

And I don’t know where I’m going
But I think I’m almost there
And if I should find tomorrow
I hope I see you there

I’d like to win the lottery just so I can give it all away
Drop down like the heroine and play the part of saving grace

And I don’t know where I’m going
But I think I’m almost there
And if I should find tomorrow
I hope I see you there

I don’t think I’ll ever change but I don’t seem to stay the same
I want more than I’ll ever need, need more than I ever say

And I don’t know where I’m going
But I think I’m almost there
And if I should find tomorrow
I hope I see you there
And if I should find tomorrow
I hope I see you there
Track Name: Simple + Plain
It’s been a long hot summer
a real slow lumbering of blank day after day
and though you couldn’t have been any colder
and my bones are fast getting older
I’m still sweatin’ it out for parcels of pay

I don’t know no way but to speak about it simple and plain
It’s such a shame to say what you’ll do when you don’t
so what you don’t do sullies what you say

well you can really play the charmer, spinning wheels of spinning yarns
but I just see you as a preacher on the stage
selling a better world, a brighter new, whatever sounds the best to you is true
til your words rot hollow in their graves

I don’t know no way but to speak about it simple and plain
It’s such a shame to say what you’ll do when you don’t
so what you don’t do sullies what you say

don’t let my conscience get in your way
I’m just a pawn inside your game

so I gotta keep myself together, gotta keep it in the road
keep my eyes on the prize, don’t let the ghosts choke out my soul
I gotta keep myself in motion, even if I gotta run
Cuz if I stop long enough to think I break down for no reason

I don’t know no way but to speak about it simple and plain
It’s such a shame to say what you’ll do when you don’t
so what you don’t do sullies what you say
Track Name: Lonely Street
Somewhere long ago in a place I don’t ever want to go again
I lost what little sense I had
Stubborn as a stone fragile as a home broken by pain
a pill popping shame

and if you find me walking down lonely street
would you stop and remind me, hey, what you doing in this place

I was just a kid and everything everyone else did
seemed so much better than my own half-hidden heart
Silent as a still picture fading over time ticking away
like my invisible face, oh yah

and if you find me walking down lonely street
would you stop and remind me, hey, what you doing in this place
what you doing in this place what you doing in this place
what you doing in this place what you doing

Cuz in the morning it all looks so different
and the marks upon your arms become the scars that you overcome
so stop, put down the razorblade, flush all you shame away
just give yourself the break you’d over anyone else

and if you find me walking down lonely street
would you stop and remind me, hey quit staring down at your feet
cuz all around you are the dreams that will set you free
and you’ll be fine, so just don’t f*** it up this time
Track Name: Easy
She takes the road down low
hikes her skirt up high
with her wanting way of loving
She will cut you if you try cuz it’s

Easy

She don’t blow no smoke
never cracks a smile
she straps 6 inch spikes to the back of her heels and a colt 45 inside of her thigh
strutting down the street like a bitch in heat she will bend your will in the blink of an eye

Easy

Cuz mama never liked the way she walked
and daddy said, baby come on over here
mama never like the way she talked
but her daddy said we’re not talking here, come on come on

But she don’t mind, she don’t mind
she don’t mind, she don’t mind no
she don’t mind, she don’t mind
she don’t mind, she’s got her pis--tol now

And there’s no burning out like this burning in
Ain’t no conscious choice it just sucks you in

Consequently she can’t change
Consequently she just takes
Every little thing anything she wants
Every little thing anything she wants
Every little thing anything she wants
Every little thing anything she wants
Every little thing anything she wants
Every little thing anything she wants
Every little thing anything she wants
Every little thing any little thing cuz it’s

Easy
Track Name: Treading Water
I’m curled in the window of a coffee shop watching the world whip by
Sometimes I want to make it stop but sometimes I want a ride
I try to figure out how everyone gets by
Me, I’ve just been treading water all of my life

Everyone’s got their laptops to disappear into
I count my crosses while thinking of you
I know you’re trying to figure out how to say goodbye
Me, I’ll just keep treading water

Can we find our way when I don’t know what you’re looking for
And every mistake I makes hurts you worse than the one before
I just thought I’d know better by now

Emma makes the coffee like she does most every day
William checks the stoop for a half-smoked butt to blaze
And I, I bide my time watching the rain
Track Name: Rodeo
I feel the full moon rising up
flexing through the light of sun
and all my naked dreams grow cold
something’s gotta give or go

the secret silence of your selfish rodeo

I got no time for your sleight of hand
no wish to suffer in your one-man’s-band
all I gave was free

the secret silence of your selfish rodeo

and all you say is a lie
and all you don’t is by design
well I can’t watch anymore
so take your silver and go

one step for the deeds you’ve stolen
one step for the lines
one step for the hearts you’ve broken
used up and denied
one step for the calculation
one step for the plan
one step for manipulating
everything you can

and I feel the full moon rising up
flexing through the light of sun
and all my naked dreams grow cold
someone’s gotta give or go

the secret silence of your selfish rodeo
the secret silence of your selfish rodeo
the secret silence of your selfish rodeo
Track Name: Holding On
I heard your voice today clear as an autumn sky
and I hope that when I pray
You can hear my heart reply

Did I ever tell you how much it meant
that night by the chapel when you came and found me

Cuz I need you to know that I would not be here now
If you hadn’t held me close through that lost dark hour
and I’m holding on, I’m holding on to you
I’m holding on, I’m still holding on to you